A Letter to SICFIT: CFDC Athlete, Mel Knourek

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Blog by Mel:

I see everyone is being honest so I will do as so in hopes of not being judged.

I can still here it now being said by “anonymous” – Maybe she has reached her limitations and can’t go any further….  (after last year’s qualifier)

I have lived to prove a point from that point forward – That anyone can kiss my butt that thinks I can’t do something.  It might take me longer, but I WILL get there.

However….

Right now I am so frustrated/angry with my body and the limitations it has.  I have been doing crossfit now for almost 2 years and instead of realizing how far I have come with my limitations, right now I am focusing on what I still suck at.   I pray every day for God to remind me that my story is the reason why some people are still motivated to attend Crossfit, but I just want to take my story and throw it out the window into the trash can…   Sometimes it makes me so mad!  And I want to ask Why me???? Why can some days I can do a specific movement and then the next I can’t even come close.

Then I watched that video - Ever since that motivation video was posted on SICFIT.com I watch it so many times a day.  The phrase that sticks with me

As we let our own light shine we unconsciously give others permission to do the same, as we are liberated from all of our fears.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure…

Yeah I am frustrated, but my frustration has me pushing harder and digging deeper.  It has taken me 2 years to get to this point, I can’t wait for another 2 years…. Sam said something to me the other day that really help me push aside the negative feelings and accept.  I had just practiced some Ab Mat HSPU’s and he saw and came up to me and said – did you ever think you would be able to do that????  It is at times like this that I thank God for allowing me to prove what can be done with heart and soul when science says it is impossible.

I will admit, I have never wanted to win. Didn’t think anything of it, but being around all of you all makes me want to win, makes me want to be great, Makes me want to prove to you all that I deserve to be amongst you.  I want for people to know our names and what gym we come from. 

What I know I need help with right now is being uncomfortable.  I pace myself vs. pushing myself. I can’t seem to break this. 

I want to place Top 30 at Sectionals, I want to go to Ft. Worth for Regional’s, I want to be GREAT! 

Please help!